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Life skills!

I'm doing this blog for many reasons ,but the first one is this. I spent sometimes at my Grandparents house which was very fun. But I heard one thing over and over again. " What are you going to do after high school?" "Well I'm going to stay at home , but I might learn Midwifery." My grandpa , "Well you need a skill you just can't stay home tell you get married and not learn a skill."

That is sad that the world believes such lies. Don't get me wrong I think skills are great. But women were created to be helpmeets. HELLO we kinda have the body to have children. But the world doesn't see be married ,and having children as a job. They see it as a part time job .

I really want to have children some days I really want to be the type of women God designed me to be.

It will be a fight. A fight that with God on my side I CAN win.

I want to encourage all young ladies that someday what to be a wife and a mom. To fight the fight. Not to believe the lies that the world will tell them. But to look in God's words for the real truth. Because someday our families will thank us for making that choice ,and for fighting for them.

My Sister

I have 4 sisters altogether and I love them all very dearly. 3 of my sisters are older then me ,and only one of them is younger her name is Leona. It just so happens that the one I'm writing about is the youngest one. She is 2 1/2 and is a complete doll. She is not like most little girls. She is wild and loves to scream the song "Jesus Loves Me" all the time. But that's not all, she loves to wear pretty things ,and do everything that (I) sissy does. She is so different then any of my 2 younger siblings.
I am so blessed to have a sister like her. The sad thing about that is it's taken me almost 2 years to really see what a blessing she is. I have always loved her and adored her ,but never as much as I should have.
This morning when I was heading out to go feed my animals I found a small girl (Leona) still in PJ's ,and wearing her cowgirl boots standing by the door. I knew by the way she looked at me that she was attending to come outside with me. But I asked anyways . "Leona where are you going?" " Me goin outside with YOU!" I just wish I could write what it felt like. The way she said it ,she was very determined to come outside . It was like God was showing me how much I was neglecting my little sister.I thought about the mornings before. When she would ask me if she could come outside with me. I very selfishly would tell her "no"
knowing that it would only be more work for me.It was hard for me to see my little sister all ready and so full of hope ,because I knew that many times before it had been just like that but I told her "No" and never even thinking about her or her feeling.
Not that telling her "no" is wrong ,but when I did it I was sinning I was only thinking of myself first. I was not working on a relationship that will last forever. I really want to ask everyone that they would be building relationships with their family. No matter how much of an age different there is. Because they love you and want to be with you. Some times we need to realize how much we tell then "No." Have fun with then ,and let them help you through out the day. It may take longer , but someday it may be to late to spend time with them.

The Princess

Once a long time ago there lived a Princess. She was not like any princess today or that you read about in storybooks. No this Princess had a beauty that would never pass away she had charm but an undecitful kind. She had a heart that was gentle with everyone and a peace that many never find in life. She works hard for her kingdom never taking for granted her position.
She was known to be a princess in her small village though some doubted her every word. Sayings “ If you are a Princess tell us where your Kingdom is. " She would gently reply " I have told you already, but you do not believe me nor can you understand what I am trying to tell you." She believed every day that her King would come for her she knew who he was, and she knew who she was."

One day while she was washing clothes by the stream she noticed some ones refection behind her. As she turned around she noticed that it was a small girl, infact she had seen this girl before when she was taking food to the orphanage. The Princess could tell that this little girl was scared. So she spoke to her in a soft gentle voice asking her name. Shyly she said, "My name is May. “The Princess was beginning to tell her what a pretty name that was when she saw the tears feel May's eyes. The Princess's heart was breaking for May for she could see that something big was on her precious little heart. So she walked over and knelt eye to eye with her and honestly asked what was wrong.
"I... I thought you were a Princess, I even told all my friends that I knew one, but I was wrong.
"The Princess laughed wiping the tears off May's face. "You weren't wrong I am a Princess."
" Well if you were really a Princess why don't you have long wavy hair, or pretty dresses? And..... and your house is no more then a shack."
The Princess looked down at her plain dress. Then she spoke in a voice just as gentle as the one before.
"My darling May how the world has lied to you."
"Beauty is something more then what you look like, it's even more then what is inside you, true beauty is given by the king."
"And as for my clothes. I just have to say they’re what I have. Because since I am a Princess that means I haves duties things that I must do. Giving to others pleases my King.
Yes some days I do want pretty dresses and pretty things, but other need things too so for me to keep all the money for myself wouldn't be very kind now would it?"
Standing up the Princess looked out across the land as far as her eyes could see, then back to little May.
" I know that my house is indeed much like a shack. But what many don't understand is that my kingdom is in another land, far away from here. Some day I will live in a kingdom unlike any other. Until then my King has placed me where I am."

“So dear May do you now believe that I am really am Princess?”

“Yes.”

May said shyly, ashamed that she ever doubted her being one in the first place.

“ Good! Now how would you like to be one too?”

May sat up straight happiness shining brightly in her eyes.

“Do you really mean it?”

“Is it really true that I could be a Princess a Princess just like you?”

“Yes indeed I mean it with all my heart you can be a Princess just like me.”

“All you have to do is love the King of Kings with all your heart, and lay down anything that will distract you from keeping your mind on him.” “ I also know that serving him and working for the Kingdom can be hard since we can’t see it yet. But do it with all your strength and remember when you do see your reward it will be better then anything this world could ever offer you.”

I don’t want to end this book with the words

“ Happily ever after.”

But they did both live happy lives-serving people, serving their King. And not giving into what other Kings had to offer them. They both were true beautiful Princess.

Christmas cookies.

I have always been the type that is very seasonal. The day after Thankgiving I bag my mother to let me decorate. I love listening to christamas music (even if it drives me nuts) I love the warmness of out fire place.
So the other day I was going to make sugar cookies I mean it's almost Christamas I can't not make them .So after making the dough . I know had to let it cool .That was a blessing for me because I stil had school and everything else to do.
When I looked at the clock I seen that I should be preheating the oven right now.I was in the computer room doing some school. I really needed to finish up something. So I asked my Mom would was already in there to set the oven to 400.
I finished school. And started making the prettest cookies. I used cute cookie cutter,and sprinkles. I placed the first to pans in the oven,and started to make the then next one.
I was giving my mom a hard time about cooking while I was cooking my cookies ,becasue then it takes away the smell of Christams cookies. Then I relized that something was burning. I didn't even expect it to be my cookies. For I had just placed them in the oven. I made a little joke to ma about something burnning ,and how it better not be my cookies. When I turned around just as mom was openning the oven and a puff of black smoke coming out of the oven. I asked mom how hot the oven was . 500 that's what you told me. NO mom 400. I looked at my cookies , well the black things that were shaped like cookies. And started to laugh mom joined in ,and we laughted so hard I cried. It was an amazing time. Although they were burned .We will never forget our Christmas cookies.

Enjoying life.

This morning I looked out at the same veiw I do everyday.But today it took my breath away. It made me decide that today I was going to do something diffrently.Instead of living my everyday life. I wanted to forget about the things that suck all the time out of my day. And just enjoy life , and all the places and people God put in it.So I hopped on my horse and I went for a ride. I was still having my time with God it was just different ,and to be truthful I felt very close to God.

I got to see the frost still on the trees,and the fog moving above the fields.I got to enjoy Gods world.

And yes I still had to do school. But when it came to helping the little boys I made it fun. I told them about the bad birds that ate the farmers crop.I told them all about scarecrows.And when my little brother asked if we could build one I didn't say no I have so much stuff to do I said YES. Even if it ment lossing my (own) time later today to do my school work. But hey truthfully how long will they want to build a scarecrow for ,how much longer will my siblings want to hang out with me? So I want to make every moment count. So read them a book , walk over to the yard just to push them on the swing. I guess what I trying to say is don't forget what matters most because you have to much to do.Enjoy your family,and God

Make EVERYDAY count. Be DIFFERENT. ENJOY life, AND LET THE LIGHT COME IN!!!!!!!!!!

I'm too young.

I'm too young.
God has given me a heart that whats to help hurting people I want to show them that God has the power to heal them.
I would pray and pray that God would give me chances to do just that.After a long wait I came to the mind set that I was to young that I couldn't do work for God. He needed someone wise ,and older,and someone that had it all together.But that was NOT the case.
One day I have know idea why it was the day ,but it was I sat down and cried for the people around me SO SO many who are abused ,and is horid places,and doing horid things.I relized that God has put me he for a reason that I had the life I had for a reason.To bring glory to God.
So for now my heart is for those that don't know the truth.TO SHOW THEM GOD,AND TO LOVE THEM,BECAUSE CHRIST LOVED ME FIRST.
So God doesn't need a rich man ,and wise man ,a man who was had a good life .He will work through the weak and the poor ,and through ME!!!!!!!!! If only I alow him too.

Home schooling.

Many times I'm asked "Young lady,why are not in school?" Well with lots of practice I have learned to say, I am. Some will laugh and say no I mean "SCHOOL."Some will even say it slower for me like I don't understand what sssssscccccchhhhhhooooooolllll is. Then very nicely I tell them I homeschool. Then depending on who it is ,then may look down and relize that I'm wearing a long skirt ,and they'll node their head ,and walk away.Some will say "why?" don't you know how fun high school is ,and your missing so much.Do you even have to do work?
What they don't understand is I am learning so much at home ,and I enjoy school.But most importianly I learn stuff that I'll use in my life. This is my 2nd year homeschooling, and yet I have learned so much ,and like I say before I love it.I don't dread reading a book ,and I can work on the things I need to work on more. Instead of moving on without understanding any of it.
This year I am also getting the previlge of teaching my 3 year old brother.It's very fun ,and also helps me .Since I some day want to have childern of my own ,and it helps me bond with my brother.
I don't know why people look down on homeschooling as if it's a way to excape doing work ,and learning.When in fact your learning so much information that is useful too.
Although I may be missing out on dances ,and partying,and "high school" I get to be with my family everyday,and I can sit in front of my stove and read my history book.I can also have friends come over and learn something together,and have fun.
So Amen on homeshooling.

Summer

Well it's here FALL.......
I don't what most of you think of when you hear that word.For many it may get you thinking of the snow and hoildays ,for others it may be time to get your fall decoratings out(I too will enjoy that) ,but for me I think of rest. Not running around ,not gone for weeks at a time,but just being around my family. Enjoying everything that the Lord has given you.
Please don't get me wrong Summer is great ,camping ,and swimming ,and all the other stuff that steals your time is great,but I'm glad that it comes to an end.Like in the book of Ecclesiastes: There is a time for everything.
and a season for everything under heaven.............
So I will enjoy this beautiful weather(except in the mornings when my toes are cold)And the very beautiful earth God the creater made.
I want to share with you some of my summer fun with you too.We did our family ,and friend cap trip ,we had great weater warm enough to swim in.This year was even more special some of my closest friens were able to come.Finally some girls (not that guys can't be fun) But with then was the Mary Jane camping book.The pictures we're so pretty,and lovily,so lets just say she inspired us to go fishing in aprons,and all dresses up .In what we had.But we did have a so much fun.I hope you enjoy looking at my pictures.

A new puppy.

Well I want to interduce you all to my new dog. He's a Jack Russuel mix. He's a cute little dog (except at 2 am) I have had him for about 2 almost 3 weeks. Now if anyone of you have a 1 ,3 ,and 4 year old in your house you are already aware that they WILL freak out when you walk through your house doors holding a furry little thing , and you see that I wrote thing because they don't really understand that this is a live animal ,and sitting on him can hurt him. Well ether Trigger (my puppy) will love kids or hate them. My 3 ,and 4 year old brothers are learning what they are aloud to do ,and what they are not aloud to do with him. Now my little 1 year old sweat little sister is a different story. She still thinks that it's ok to sit on him. But I have to say they are pretty cute to watch when their all three running around the house screaming because the bear is coming (That big scary bear would be my little dog.) Trigger is a funny little dog he does sometimes think he's a bear ,sometimes that thought gets him into trouble with my other dog who is by no means small. So that's pretty much all that has been happening around here. And all I have to say is thank you LORD for kids and puppies.

A great creater.

You know how great our creater is ? I mean have you recently just looked around and seen the beautiful earth he has created? He could have made it plain . I mean he didn't have to feel it with evergreen trees, and rivers that flowed peacefully. He has surrounded my house with such a pretty veiw for me I can't not think of him whenn I walk out my front door. If heaven is better ,and pretter then where I leave Please call me home Father.
(Here are some pictures of wher I leave.)

A great gift from the Lord.

Well I have to say that God has given me many great gifts in my life . Even though at times I don't always see them or even appreciate as much as I should.
I haven't always been in a home or had a family. I had people would wern't made to have kids. So I am so so blesed to have mine that God has recintly given me. I would like to welcome them to you. First I has my papa who is my protecter ,provided ,profit ,and priest. He is everything I ever could dream of a him being .Then I have my mama who is sweat , gentle ,and a great teacher. She is moore then I could ever dream of being.Then I have my two little worrior's Wade ( 4 almost all grown up as he would say.) and Jonas (2) their such a blessing to teach ,and watch grow. Then I have my sweat 1 year old sister who is learning to be a princess and not a growling animal .... Well that was it 2 months ago .But our great Lord has blessed my mama's womb agian.. Thank you Lord... That's it I know a perfect family......